Prodigious

The word for 2010.

I keep seeing "2010 sucked for me", I don't agree. We had a really good 2010. We accomplished a lot, we accumulated a lot. We both had jobs all year long. All things considered it was prodigious.
 
I say this because we accumulated a lot of stuff this year... a lot. A TV, Computer, PS3, Dining room set, Camera, Grill, fire pit, dog... it was an extraoridnary in size year. But, I lost weight to make up for it???
 
And, yet it was wonderful. A house, a vacation, Kyle went back to school, Aidan lost his first tooth, lots of good stuff. Wonderful year.
 
I would like 2011 to be Diligent. I want to get a lot accomplished with school and writing. I want to reach weight loss goals and goals in general. Goals are good things. I'm actually going to sit down and make a list of goals that I want to accomplish this year. Maybe even in my snazzy leather journal that my cousin got me for Christmas. It's awesome.. I have been searching for reasons to use it!! I can keep track of how I do with my goals? Maybe, I don't know. I will find it's purpose though!
 
 
So, starting on January first I am taking my new camera and I am going to be doing a 365 Project. I'm excited. I think it will be an awesome project and something to really focus on. I know I have a lot going on with school and my diet, and being a wife/mom/needy dog owner. But, I feel that it could be soemthing fun and something to help me take my mind off of the unfun stuff. Like school. Plus, any reason to use my camera, right?!?!?!?!
 
Also, I will be hitting the diet super hard again. SUPER hard... we won't discuss my HORRIBLE eating habits since Thanksgiving, but I have put soem weight back on. Not too much, but enough for me to feel yucky about it. So, I'm wanting to join a gym and maybe do some fun classes? I don't know what yet exactly, but something. I know, gotta keep my plate full at all times. I get bored and watch entirely too much tv if I don't have lots going on and keeping me busy.
 
Well, I must go and clean my house for our gathering tonight. Everyone have a safe and happy New Year!

December.. WOW!

So, 2010 is coming to a close. My first year as a married adult, the first year of living in a house, the first year I have actually known what I TRUELY wanted to do and went for it, and the year I lost 25lbs & can fit into a size 16 again. And, the  year of our first real family vacation.

What a year it has been!

I have so much I want to try to do in 2011. I'm going to attempt taking 3 classes, we want to go to Minnesota for Aidan's spring break. A new state and my first airplane ride!

I started doing the HCG thing for about a week right before Thanksgiving and have decided to wait until the new year. I'm back to WW and hopefully that will help keep the Christmas weight at bay. We went hiking this morning and it felt so good. I haven't done that in a long time. We took Monster with us and he had a blast. Kyle and I talked about it and have decided that we will hike every other week and go to church every other week. We just need to find a church in our area that we are both comfortable going too. We will see how that goes.

I'm going to create a goals list for 2011 I think. Just some things that I feel are reachable and will be worth working towards. I don't know what exactly it will include yet, but I have about 24 days to work it out.:-)

We are going to have a New Year's party again this year, so I am pretty excited about that. I love having partys!!

I guess that's really it. I have an essay and  a final to get done!
Have a great week!

Shred it Baby!

I was feeling a bit insane today when workout time came around. I decided I would give Jillian Michaels 30 day shred a try. OMG, insane isn't even a fair word for it. My legs were shaking and I looked like I was just hosed down from head to toe. Who would have thought 20 mins could be so hard?

So, I bought the dvd as soon as I was done. Lol my new goal for May? Shred every day for 30 days! Let's do it! I know you will hear about how sore I am, and how I don't want to do it, but just tell me to shut up and at the end I will be glad I did it.

Here we go!

April In A Nutshell

Holy cow, it's already May! I can't believe it.

So, for my April to do list I got 3 out of 5 things accomplished. (waiting for applause.....)

1. I got a Wii fit! (thanks again to my awesome family)
2. Started Weight Watchers. I started it last week & have done pretty good. 2.5lbs down.... only 77.5 more to go! :-)
3. Date night! We had date night last Saturday. It was good to relax and spend time with Kyle.

April was a good month. My birthday, Easter, I got back in school, it was the 3 year mark since Kyle & I moved in together and quite a bit of family time. I got myself organized to start my weight loss off right and it actually worked!

May is so far looking to be a good month too. It will start with Monster's end of the year performance. I can't believe he will be a first grader! That is insane. My financial aid will be coming, woo hoo new computer! I will be starting my classes, yes I am looking forward to that. I like school, I'm a total nerd. Planning Monster's 6th birthday party. And, of course Mother's day. I'm looking forward to the struggle of keeping up with my weight loss and getting closer to my goal!

Woo hoo time to make a new to do list.

It's Been Awhile

With Easter, my dreaded birthday (that turned out being pretty good thanks to my awesome family & amazing husband), being sick & hectic life, I have completely forgot about blogging. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me.

So, we'll start with Easter. It was nice. Kyle wasn't feeling good so he didn't go to work. Monster is getting a little older so we were able to make his egg hunting a little bit more difficult. We went to my Mom's for dinner and had a birthday celebration all in one. My awesome family got me a Wii Fit! Which I adore, thank you monks and everyone else!

My birthday was good. My desk at work was decorative which made the day feel special. Complete with flowers and chocolates! Kyle brought me lunch and a new cd. Then I came home made Tacos for the monster and I & watched dvr'd episodes of Nurse Jackie & US of Tara. I took Wednesday off to celebrate with Kyle. We went to see Repomen & had lunch at The Cheese Cake Factory. Delicious! We were also semi celebrating our 5 month wedding anniversary. I can't believe it has already been THAT long. So, we decided that on the 7th of every month we are going back to The Cheese Cake Factory to try a different kind of cheese cake. At least until our 1 year. I don't think I have told you about Kyle's deep love for cheese cake. I'm pretty sure he would divorce me to marry it if it was legal.

I have also recently enrolled for online classes. I really enjoy school. So, once again I'm going back. That made me think of the song at the beginning of Grease 2. Ha ha, now I want to watch it. Anyway, back to school (ha Ja I'm totally singing that in my head everytime I type it), I'm taking prerequisites for the nursing program. But I have also been thinking about going further in English and writing. It has always been something I enjoy and have been pretty good at. I guess we'll see how it goes.

But, with the financial aid we will be able to get a new computer! I'm totally excited. It's going to take 4-6 weeks for the award to go through, which I really don't understand. I was approved in April of last year! That's the government for you. My first class statred on Monday and the next on May 12th. I'll be going to my Mom's to do the work. So, if anyone wants to buy my computer now, I'll pay you back in 4-6 weeks. No really, I'm serious. :-)

We got a new dog last Sunday. Her name is Bella. She is 2 years old and is a mix between an American Bulldog and Boxer. She is beautiful and very active. Although, if you saw her curled up snoring right now you would call me a liar. Kyle told me he wants to eventually have a dog rescue. My first reaction was "Absolutely not! OMG all that dog hair, are you CRAZY?" Then the more I thought about, it wouldn't be a bad idea WAY later in life, when we have a bigger house with a BIG backyard with enough room to have rescue dogs. My problem would be getting attached and not wanting to give them up.

And, finally the best part of all. We get to vacation in July!!! Kyle's work had to close down for 12 days. So, I took the 2nd week of July off and we are going on a real vacation. We will be driving to Houston to see Kyle's sister's new house. But, we are stopping on the way in San Antonio to go to Sea World and The Alamo. We are very excited. Not only for our vacation but 10 days of no work! OMG!!

I guess that covers everything... oh wait! We finally got Monster's rooms unpacked. Yes, he has 2 rooms, don't judge. He's an only child with entirely too many toys. And, we are happy with that. Unless we are unpacking them, then we are cursing the fact that he has so many.

Hope everyone else is having a good weekend I'm gonna go play my Wii Fit!

Who Needs A Title For This? Not Me.

I always find Saturday afternoons to be my favorite part of my week. There is still plenty of time ahead before the dreaded Monday and I have already accomplished something with my weekend, or at least this weekend I have.

I have realized a lot this past week that I have really been struggling with lately. I'm not sure what route I'm headed with this or how to map it all out for you, so hang in there this might get a little bumpy and all over the place.

With my looming birthday I have realized that getting older is becoming an issue for me. I know I'm still considered young, but I feel like I'm getting too old to be unsure of what I want to do. I know, I'm not even 30 yet, blah blah blah blah. But, still! I seriously feel like I should be somewhere by now. I had a plan when I was younger, but somewhere along the years of rebelling and moving in with my then boyfriend, getting pregnant, moving home, moving out, moving home, then out and so forth I lost sight of my plan. I know it's my fault, so it's time to fix it. Hopefully, by Monday, I will be on a good path in the right direction.

On to my next realization. I hate Kyle's schedule. Hate, hate,hate... did I say I hate it? I spend a lot of time with Monster which is awesome, but not enough adult time. With this pure hatred for his schedule it has made me irritable with Kyle. I know full well that it isn't his fault. Which then makes me feel guilty for being irritated with Kyle. It's a horrible cycle. It isn't like we aren't used to not seeing each other. That has been our relationship from the start. We have pretty much always worked opposite schedules. So, why the new irritation with it? I guess I'm just starting to feel like enough is enough. I want a life. I want to do things with our friends, have date nights, see each other more than 2 nights a week and a couple hours over the weekend. Who knows when this will change. Sooner rather than later I hope.

I feel like I'm whining. But, dang it, this is my blog and I will whine if I want to. In spirit of whining, on to my next subject;

My weight loss struggle.

It feels like my weight has always been something I have fought with. There was a period of time in high school where looking back now I was a good healthy weight. But, to ask me then I thought I was fat. And then right before I got pregnant I was at a decent size, but again I thought I was fat. Fast forward to now, I'm relatively 100lbs heavier than I was then. Maybe even more. I have always struggled with this. It is depressing and hard to deal with. My fault? Absolutely. I don't have a medical condition that causes it. Unless laziness is a medical condition. I was doing really well with weight watchers last year. But, I found some excuse for why I had to stop, like I always do. I'm notorious for excuses. You would think that my repulsion for myself would push me harder, but it doesn't.

I'm going to start it again. I'm going to do this. I have been told it gets harder to lose the weight the older you get. I need to lose it, before it turns into a medical problem. There will be excuses, I know it. But, I need to. To not only be healthy, but because I don't want to look at myself in the mirror anymore. Because, seeing what I looked like on my wedding day grossed me out. Because, I'm INSANELY insecure. Because if I don't now I might always be this way. And I'm not ok with that.

Now with all this being said it might seem like I'm having a pitty party or think my life is so hard. I don't. I know I'm better off than a lot of other people. I know just how lucky I am. I'm just unusually depressed at the moment.

Well call me Betty Downer. If you actually made it this far into this I commend you and wish I had some sort of prize for you. Until next time, Have a great day and Happy Easter to you!

Goals

I'm not very good at keeping to a schedule, but not having one throws me into a panic attack. It doesn't make sense, I know. So, with this in mind I have thought maybe I will start doing a monthly goals list. Nothing to hard to accomplish (I don't want to discourage myself), just some stuff I know I need to do. Like clean out my car... Omg is that thing gross and scarey. We might put that on next month's list. Did I mention I'm also really good at procrastinating?

So; here's my thought... I can create my to-do list on here, that way when I actually accomplish something I can cross it off. I love the feeling that I have actually accomplished something. So, maybe getting to cross things off the list will help me to actually do them.

Ooo, thought! I can also make a list of things we want to do with the house. I'm really digging this list idea. It might help with my procrastination problem!

When we were at Michael's earlier this week I decided I want to try to be more crafty. It's not that I'm not good at it, it's that I get bored. So, while we were there I decided I wanted to paint monster's name with those wooden letters. I actually went and bought the stuff yesterday! Now, today I'm going to paint them. I'll post a picture later.

Maybe I'll clean out my car too. But, let's not get to crazy. :-)